A letter to a soulmate

It’s been close to 3 years since we last spoke. I kept you in a tiny corner in the back of my mind. Pretty low on my checklist of people but high enough that I never forgot you. Years of growing up together, playing, learning. asking questions (good and stupid)… now it seems like a dream.

You thanked me for the moments, sitting on the grass, the music, the concerts, the times we fell so hard we barely made it out alive. The time we learned to try and love ourselves — as hard as that could be. We had each other — safety — consistency — across time and space.

Today you said goodbye. I knew it was coming. I felt it course through my blood and deep inside my bones. Goodbye is never easy to receive, but from you, it seemed surreal. Each word felt different, it didn't seem right.

Be the bigger person…. Know better. I need to go with this. I accept your decisions, I have made the same ones before. If only I knew then what I know now.

Through space and time — until we meet again.